I have yet to hear from you
I have yet to know what you been up to
I have let myself down by letting you in too soon, too quickly.
The wise tried to teach me, I still haven’t learned,
I am bound to make the same mistake
My heart is a fool and we don’t get along.
The darkness surrounds me, it swallows me whole
I break my bones, one by one
That pain I know how to handle,
I know how it tastes, I know that it heals.
I take a sip of fire, it penetrates every pore
Someone calls my name, I put my head down and ignore.
Lonely are my days,
loneliness lingers through the night.
Going back in time is like walking barefoot on a barbed wire
I look down, my feet bleed
I find myself talking to the bottle like it’s my best friend
I am in need of something real,
something that can help me believe,
but nothing makes sense, nothing feels right.
The dark circles under my eyes can tell you
I have been through hell,
somehow the bottle understands.